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Monday, October 29, 2007

I had the wierdest dream a few nights ago. I feel that it is the worst dream since i last watched some horror movie when i was a kid.

So, wierdest to worst.

But still,the dream is so clear. So clear and defined. So clear, defined and impactful. It felt as if it was just yesterday that the dream happened.

What happened in the dream?

She appeared in my dream. She, my ex-gf. I felt like i was being pulled away from something. And she was pulling me back. She was screaming helplessy to me.

"Don't leave me. Don't leave me"

She kept repeating and repeating and repeating

The situation felt so real.I was feeling the tension of the moment during that period of time. I was sub-consciously still awake and i could really feel someone pulling me.

And the wierd thing is?I woke up next morning, and i found red marks on my hand. The aftermath of red markings that resembles someone's hand pulling me so hard.

I do not know how all this happened but what is the meaning of all these? Is this some kind of sign? What is god trying to tell me? Is she really leaving me? Or just leaving?

I know i still love her.But i just can't see to myself or her get hurt once again.We have known each other for about almost 2 and 1/2 years. On and off. I cant seem to tell her how i feel again.

My birthday's next week. I'm looking foward.Not looking foward. I just want you for my birthday. It would make the perfect 19 years of life for me.

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