Friday, October 31, 2008
You know, if only i could turn back time and change the whole thing around to make it for the better, i would.
I guess I'm disappointed with the people around me who has come and go, and left without saying their last goodbyes, or plainly just left without a word.
Sometimes, people who i appreciate most or i thought i could rely on, who has left me, actually made me an aimless person in a pro long run i feel.
Because mainly when you thought you had them, you could find meaning in life, okay, in a sense, your source of motivation to strive towards your goal. Parents, friends and your companions are 3 separate issues to begin with. Not everything you could share your joy or sorrows with these 3 parties at the same time, with the same news.
But once they are gone, you feel totally helpless. Like, where do i begin now?
And if this happens over and over again, you feel so hurt and you can't seem to direct yourself to the right path of life.
So, when people say, "I really love you" or " Don't worry, I'll always be there for you"
Do they say these just to please the other party to give that sense of assurance and trust that "I'm your friend but i will put myself first before you" or is just plain sincerity from the bottom of their hearts. Words are cheap, but actions are the way to show it all.
Saying all these cliched lines such as "I really love you" should not be used when used in seek of just filling up the emptiness in yourself, or like having a girlfriend/boyfriend for the sake of having because of that "I'm attached" status, because the is ultimately your happiness. Your happiness affects the people around you.
We can say a million things, but carrying out these actions because you believe you can achieve i guess wouldn't make life so cliched as it already is. But then again, if life is that cliched, what's more to life?
Oh damn, life is full of cliched acts.
I guess I'm disappointed with the people around me who has come and go, and left without saying their last goodbyes, or plainly just left without a word.
Sometimes, people who i appreciate most or i thought i could rely on, who has left me, actually made me an aimless person in a pro long run i feel.
Because mainly when you thought you had them, you could find meaning in life, okay, in a sense, your source of motivation to strive towards your goal. Parents, friends and your companions are 3 separate issues to begin with. Not everything you could share your joy or sorrows with these 3 parties at the same time, with the same news.
But once they are gone, you feel totally helpless. Like, where do i begin now?
And if this happens over and over again, you feel so hurt and you can't seem to direct yourself to the right path of life.
So, when people say, "I really love you" or " Don't worry, I'll always be there for you"
Do they say these just to please the other party to give that sense of assurance and trust that "I'm your friend but i will put myself first before you" or is just plain sincerity from the bottom of their hearts. Words are cheap, but actions are the way to show it all.
Saying all these cliched lines such as "I really love you" should not be used when used in seek of just filling up the emptiness in yourself, or like having a girlfriend/boyfriend for the sake of having because of that "I'm attached" status, because the is ultimately your happiness. Your happiness affects the people around you.
We can say a million things, but carrying out these actions because you believe you can achieve i guess wouldn't make life so cliched as it already is. But then again, if life is that cliched, what's more to life?
Oh damn, life is full of cliched acts.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Can't win your losing fight all the time when you're always taking sides
How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
The truth is hiding in your eyes and its hanging on your tongue.
And you think that I can't see?
Just tell me if you really mean it cause i'm feeling all exasperated thinking about it.
For goodness sake. Open your damn eyes wide and take a look around you.
Do you see what we've done?
Not this time i will lose out to you
Monday, October 27, 2008
You can't quit until you try
You can't live until you die
You can't learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie
Just because you've experienced pain or disappointment in the past does not guarantee that it's all you'll experience in the future. There are many things in your past that you couldn't control, and everybody comes across unfortunate circumstances at some point in their lives - we ourselves as an individual are not an exception! But there are also many things in life we can control to one degree or another, and therein lies the possibility of change. A day or week that starts badly will not necessarily end badly. Do not make a bad start turn into a self fulfilling prophecy for a bad ending.
And when it comes to that, i guess what we overlook is not being grateful enough with whatever we have around us. Everyone has something to be grateful for.I guess the key to being an optimist is recognizing the benefits and possibilities of any situation, and understanding that it could always be worse. If all else fails, think of how life could be worse, and flip the thought process to recognize what you do have. Like, "I'm flunking out of school" can turn into "Well, at least I have a chance to go to school, and I still have time to turn my grades around."
Not everyone is lucky and the attitude in you only change if you are just willing to give it a try.
Accept pain, failure and disappointment as a part of life, not the entirety of it.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Many outings, few uploads of photos. Shall not say much.
FashionBar @ Clarke Quay 181008
Non stop fidgeting from hair to whatever he can do with his hands 
'Assalamualaikum Bang!'
I told you he won't stop fidgeting, now with tissue. HehArab Street 171008
Got damn pochong siolxzs behind him
I love shinobi =)
Muke steam sak.
Esplanade 151008
Bangla on the loose!
Nigga lips.Sheesh
Everyone got their own thing to do. Such randomnity
Diddy: ' Aku bilang kao. Jangan panggil aku doraemon lagi'
HAHAHAHA
How did we get here?
If you strongly believe in what you believe in, don't just fucking sit there once you fall.
You fucking pick yourself up and try again. Losing is not an option because where passion or interest matters, nothing come in between them.
I already lost once, and i know I ain't gonna give up because i ain't a quitter and that's how life works
Now, this is where i fucking stand, I'm gonna give it another try
You fucking pick yourself up and try again. Losing is not an option because where passion or interest matters, nothing come in between them.
I'm wandering around confused,wondering why I try and the more that you deny my pain,the more it intensifies
Everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was,died with your belief in me so who the hell am I?
So now, I'm not gonna wonder how I'm supposed to feel without you cause I'm moving on Everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was,died with your belief in me so who the hell am I?
I already lost once, and i know I ain't gonna give up because i ain't a quitter and that's how life works
Now, this is where i fucking stand, I'm gonna give it another try
Sunday, October 19, 2008
I can't do this anymore. I don't have the strength to carry on. Who am i to lie to myself?
I'm already lost without you
You left me broken-hearted
Superficial understandings, misconceptions of life, questionable moves
Am i ready for this?
Never thought that i would turn out this way
Am i ready for this?
Never thought that i would turn out this way
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Pissed and fucked up with one, benevolence
and desperation on the other.
and desperation on the other.
I'm torn apart into 2 sides, but to which?
People who are indecisive and drags on the situation are people whom i dread most.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Bearing the responsibility, accepting the fact, living with the mistake, moving on with life
There was me and you, then, there was just me
There was me and you, then, there was just me
Monday, October 13, 2008
So, the day actually finally came. Yes. It was my first outing out with my polymates throughout my 3 years. Back to back, my normal outside and secondary school friends would be my companions for these outings. But since, we as event planners, we planned actually managed to execute out our outing. It was practically 3/4 (which was 13 or 14 only i think) of the whole malay DIEM cohort whom actually went for the house visitings, which started at 10am, and ended 12 hours later (you do the math). Exhilirating i must say, not only we somehow like went drifting around Singapore with the rented cars, but we also managed to get ourselves lost here and there (HAHA), shouting across from one car to another and so loads more.
WATI! Send you back to Palembang ah if u don't stop posing!
Alamak. Cute nak mampos sak
KPAK BING BING. CEHHHH
Preparing to go HAJ siolxz
I am looking so cool as ever la. HAHAHA. Joking only la fuck
'APE?! Kao nak aku pakai jilbab?'
'Meh Meh. Biar kakak gigit kepala kao'
Upper Thomson Road 11102008
I present you 'MR IPOH'
And here's his competitor, 'MR PORT KLANG!'
Searching high and low for his port, but to no avail
Aku macam nak sepak korang dua ah. HAHA
Love is Noise
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Sometimes, i guess we have to run with what we've got, and just chase with what you need
Is This It?
Is This It?
Thursday, October 09, 2008
You know, there are times when your friends are feeling down, and you yourself sometimes feel rather uneasy and upset to see your friend, especially your close ones, see in their current state.
But i think there's a fucking limit to know when being appreciative than rather riding and taking the opportunity to fucking use you are 2 separate issues to fucking begin with.
So bloody fuck, don't come to me if any problems are coming onto you cause you what? I don't give a fuck. I've seen you through too much. I rather see you fall in your damn misery.
Self-inflicted
But i think there's a fucking limit to know when being appreciative than rather riding and taking the opportunity to fucking use you are 2 separate issues to fucking begin with.
So bloody fuck, don't come to me if any problems are coming onto you cause you what? I don't give a fuck. I've seen you through too much. I rather see you fall in your damn misery.
Self-inflicted
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Although fasting month is over, i guess it was filled with just plain excitement.Not forgetting breaking my fast, yeah, breaking fast (i don't know how many days i actually fasted anyways) with my fellow RP-ians, who else but CCC (if you're wondering who they are,they are my fellow DIEM-mates). From Eu Ton Seng to Ju's House, not a day shall i forget these days.
Iftar at Ju's House
Oh si Nangka. HEH
Eu Ton Seng/Arab Street
'WHO STOLE MY PANTY!' Heh
I was feeling the feeling ah
Diyanah: 'I think everyone hates me' HAHA
Just blowing hot and cold
