Friday, October 31, 2008
You know, if only i could turn back time and change the whole thing around to make it for the better, i would.
I guess I'm disappointed with the people around me who has come and go, and left without saying their last goodbyes, or plainly just left without a word.
Sometimes, people who i appreciate most or i thought i could rely on, who has left me, actually made me an aimless person in a pro long run i feel.
Because mainly when you thought you had them, you could find meaning in life, okay, in a sense, your source of motivation to strive towards your goal. Parents, friends and your companions are 3 separate issues to begin with. Not everything you could share your joy or sorrows with these 3 parties at the same time, with the same news.
But once they are gone, you feel totally helpless. Like, where do i begin now?
And if this happens over and over again, you feel so hurt and you can't seem to direct yourself to the right path of life.
So, when people say, "I really love you" or " Don't worry, I'll always be there for you"
Do they say these just to please the other party to give that sense of assurance and trust that "I'm your friend but i will put myself first before you" or is just plain sincerity from the bottom of their hearts. Words are cheap, but actions are the way to show it all.
Saying all these cliched lines such as "I really love you" should not be used when used in seek of just filling up the emptiness in yourself, or like having a girlfriend/boyfriend for the sake of having because of that "I'm attached" status, because the is ultimately your happiness. Your happiness affects the people around you.
We can say a million things, but carrying out these actions because you believe you can achieve i guess wouldn't make life so cliched as it already is. But then again, if life is that cliched, what's more to life?
Oh damn, life is full of cliched acts.
I guess I'm disappointed with the people around me who has come and go, and left without saying their last goodbyes, or plainly just left without a word.
Sometimes, people who i appreciate most or i thought i could rely on, who has left me, actually made me an aimless person in a pro long run i feel.
Because mainly when you thought you had them, you could find meaning in life, okay, in a sense, your source of motivation to strive towards your goal. Parents, friends and your companions are 3 separate issues to begin with. Not everything you could share your joy or sorrows with these 3 parties at the same time, with the same news.
But once they are gone, you feel totally helpless. Like, where do i begin now?
And if this happens over and over again, you feel so hurt and you can't seem to direct yourself to the right path of life.
So, when people say, "I really love you" or " Don't worry, I'll always be there for you"
Do they say these just to please the other party to give that sense of assurance and trust that "I'm your friend but i will put myself first before you" or is just plain sincerity from the bottom of their hearts. Words are cheap, but actions are the way to show it all.
Saying all these cliched lines such as "I really love you" should not be used when used in seek of just filling up the emptiness in yourself, or like having a girlfriend/boyfriend for the sake of having because of that "I'm attached" status, because the is ultimately your happiness. Your happiness affects the people around you.
We can say a million things, but carrying out these actions because you believe you can achieve i guess wouldn't make life so cliched as it already is. But then again, if life is that cliched, what's more to life?
Oh damn, life is full of cliched acts.
