music-idiot designs. the fake sound of progress

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Arab Street with E26A






St James Power House





I'm missing you so badly right now

kill me; 5:20 PM

.Don't Resent Me

Thursday, November 27, 2008

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
and just help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
That's all i'm asking for
I can't be who you are

kill me; 11:35 PM

.What A Month

Saturday, November 22, 2008

So many outings, and only recently i found the time to do some editing to the thousands of photos that has been taken and taken the best few i guess. Haha. Well. Won't say much. =)
Lau Pa Sat/Boat Quay


Add Image You can't find the best satay elsewhere but here in Lau Pa Sat. Oh man, trust me.

Sembawang Park

Apparently, he was drunk and is in his own world with his drawings. Lol


Boat Quay





Takashimaya with fellow DIEM-ers (CCC)


Razan got hair actually! Cool siolxzs

Eh Cik Kak, besarnye lobang hidung kamu ya? Hehe

Suntec City Sky Garden


He wants to stab me at that moment, i swear. Ass

Hello there Mr Big Foot.

I now pronounce you, husband and wife. Chek Ahhh

Obscene scene.





Esplanade/War Memorial Park



This is a cockroach that Farz sepak-ed on. Cool or what!

Clarke Quay
Tecktonik!

Damn u thief!




Ikan
No comment. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

St James Power House is our new playground. =D

Its just those days when random thoughts makes my day

kill me; 2:40 PM

.I Just Wanna

Saturday, November 15, 2008

First of all, i would like to self declare that this month is the worst month of 2008. Problems have piling up on me every single day ever since the beginning of November.
Not enough that i am upset with the first day of November, what was seen in my presence,
People i feel are getting mad/agitated at me for my doings,
Can't concentrate in class,
An unmemorable and disappointing birthday.Not much gifts,
Stranded in the thunderstorm without any freaking shelter for 30 minutes with no jacket, but just a thin layer of clothing covering me, which is my clothes,
My good friend met an accident, which is still lying unconsicious in the hospital,
Fearing for my future,
Fearing for my friends future,
Fearing for my safety,
Fearing for my friends security,
Fearing of what is going to happen next,
Fearing of how much time left for me to be able to pull through till my grauation day,
Sometimes, i just wonder, no matter how much things you do for people, at most of the times, out of kindness for me is being taken for granted. I'm just annoyed with people in my surroundings. I don't even know they are putting up a show just to say 'Thank-You" cause i'm right in front of you, or just that they really mean it. I don't feel appreciated. That's how i'm feeling right now.
Everyone keep on saying, of course i appreciate you for what you have done for me. FUCK! Don't keep on telling me that. I'm tired of people saying all these without actions. Show me your appreciation! Cause as far as i'm concern, let's just face it. Fuck! I'm just being taken for a ride and be your back pillion rider.
But hey, then again, who gives a fuck about what i think?

Cause on this empty street,i shall just continue walking alone till i'm banished from this face of the earth

kill me; 1:05 PM

.Your Drug is A Heartbreaker

Thursday, November 13, 2008

I can't confront you
I never could do
That which might hurt you

I've spent every moment since the day you left me, attempting to regain the shattered remains of my pathetic life. The need to be working to be someone you can be proud of,someone you can love again

I have given you everything that I have to give. Everything I'm able to give,taking into consideration your reluctance to accept anything I have to offer

I swallow the hate, betrayed and lies
How much more will it take?
How much more until it breaks me?

I know exactly what you're thinking ,but I swear this time I will not let you down
I'm not as selfish as I used to be. That was a part of me that never made me proud
Right now I think I would try anything.Anything at all to keep you satisfied
God I hope you see what losing you would do to me
All I want is one more chance.

What do I have to do to make you want me?
What do I have to do to make you understand?
What do I have to do to make you love me?
But, if I can't make you love me ,just tell me what do I have to do to forget about you.

In this perpetual nightmare,I decide it ends right here

kill me; 4:12 PM

.It Started Out With

Sunday, November 09, 2008

It started with a coincidental meet
It continued with endless calls
It began with casual talks
It continued with good memories of the past
It continued with an I MISS YOU
It ended up with I STILL LOVE YOU

WHAT THE FUCK

To think i was back to square one for you at that very moment.

I beg of you. Begging you my very knees.Please. Stop doing this to me. Don't fucking mess around with my mind.

You have officialy ruined my mood on the eve of my damn birthday.

Thank you, and congratulations, I could never be more earnest and truthful when I say, "Fuck you, please get the hell out of my life".

I have nothing else to say. The worst birthday eve of my life.

kill me; 8:59 PM

.All I Wanted

Saturday, November 08, 2008

I waited up all night
But I never saw the light

When I lose myself I'll think of you

kill me; 3:40 PM

.Have You?

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart, if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid

Afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

  • What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
  • What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
  • What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
  • What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
  • What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

HAVE YOU?

I'm trying my best, but please give me time baby. I promise.

kill me; 2:21 PM

.Oh Fuck

Monday, November 03, 2008

OH FUCK
Saturday
I saw her in the damn bus of all days. She's with another person. She held my hand. I felt fucked up. And now, she's been contacting me but i don't wanna talk to her.
The other she is angry and dissapointed with me.
Sunday
My best friend is shunning me
She's still angry with me
I'm getting agitated and pissed at slightest things for the past few days without reasons
Monday (Today)
Didn't had time to study for a 'non-referance 6P UT'. Was late for UT. Couldn't complete UT. Didn't knew how to do UT.
Yet to be convinced she is not angry with me although she says she's fine
And now i feel weak. I'm running a damn temperature. I can hardly breathe. My heads spinning like a damn spiral. I'm breaking cold sweat.I feel like vommiting. Someones as if tearing my stomach open.
Oh dear god, just where the fuck did i go wrong now?!

kill me; 7:45 PM

.Fucked Up

Sunday, November 02, 2008

MEMANG MACAM PLAPUKI AH.
BUTOH MACAM SIAL
JUST TOTALLY FUCKED UP!
Will those feets in modern times, take me to a whole new level of life?

kill me; 1:52 PM

.Doraemonxzs

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Alamak.Legal already ah.HAHA
Happy Birthday Eugene!
Once a doraemon, always a doraemon.

kill me; 4:03 PM