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Monday, July 02, 2007

As i sit here in class,listening to my classmates explaining their research in their slides, I question myself. Is this the diploma that i want to be in? I have no will and motivation to continue studying.It seems like my grades have begun detriorating.I wasn't myself as who i used to be.The one who looks foward to school to meet up my friends.I am surrounded by a group of people who are just much more superior than me.And it seems that i am losing.Defeat is what i sense in me.

Just what do i want in life?I'm still searching for what i want and after 18 1/2 years,for the first time in my life, i feel lost.

Quit school?
Perhaps.

Fear in me so deep it gets the best of me,In the fear I fall, here it comes face to face with me

kill me; 3:02 PM