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Sunday, July 20, 2008

I think i have been exhausting myself for the past few days, reaching at the doorstep of my house at almost 5am daily Only to wake up in the next afternoon. And i guess i have been having a very bad back-ache which comes and goes from the aftermath of too much sleeping.Yah i know, how wierd to get backache from too much sleeping, but that's just how i am.Fuck. I think i'm like getting old la.

Caught 'Handcock' last night with my fellow 'bandmates'. Hahaha. Great movie. Oh ya. My friend is a loser who caught it for the 3rd time already man. Hahahaha.

Anyways, i don't know but i have been urging to get across to much people in what i have been trying to say or convey to them.

It seems that people view me as an emo-kid -.- which i do not know why, just because of the way i dress and how my hairstyle is being done. Whenever i am quiet, people always ask me what's wrong. "Don't slit your wrists la"... Hahaha. Appreciate your concern though but hold on to your horses man! Relax! =)

Doesn't mean if i am quiet means i am having a problem. Maybe i just need a piece of time-out for myself or just really having a problem.

And the wierd thing is if it is a problem, it could nothing else but be the never ending story of my relationship. I guess i am the type of person whom doesn't seem to be able to let go of relationships.

For a person whom you know for so long, you would like basically know each other inside out and we feel so attached from the experiences that we have been through together. Sometimes when you think about it, you feel that she is the one for you. But whenever a problem crops up, it seems like a whole fucked up relationship where fingers are pointed out at one another. Blasting at each other through phones, at each other's faces and even to our own friends.

But no matter what, i always try to make a relationship work. Its the sacrifice you make for one another. One has to eventually compromise to make a relationship work as it is all about give and take or otherwise, it will just be another typical 'teenage drama in a relationship'.


Everything is average nowadays

kill me; 3:29 PM