Saturday, November 15, 2008
First of all, i would like to self declare that this month is the worst month of 2008. Problems have piling up on me every single day ever since the beginning of November.
Not enough that i am upset with the first day of November, what was seen in my presence,
People i feel are getting mad/agitated at me for my doings,
Can't concentrate in class,
An unmemorable and disappointing birthday.Not much gifts,
Stranded in the thunderstorm without any freaking shelter for 30 minutes with no jacket, but just a thin layer of clothing covering me, which is my clothes,
My good friend met an accident, which is still lying unconsicious in the hospital,
Fearing for my future,
Fearing for my friends future,
Fearing for my safety,
Fearing for my friends security,
Fearing of what is going to happen next,
Fearing of how much time left for me to be able to pull through till my grauation day,
Sometimes, i just wonder, no matter how much things you do for people, at most of the times, out of kindness for me is being taken for granted. I'm just annoyed with people in my surroundings. I don't even know they are putting up a show just to say 'Thank-You" cause i'm right in front of you, or just that they really mean it. I don't feel appreciated. That's how i'm feeling right now.
Everyone keep on saying, of course i appreciate you for what you have done for me. FUCK! Don't keep on telling me that. I'm tired of people saying all these without actions. Show me your appreciation! Cause as far as i'm concern, let's just face it. Fuck! I'm just being taken for a ride and be your back pillion rider.
But hey, then again, who gives a fuck about what i think?
Cause on this empty street,i shall just continue walking alone till i'm banished from this face of the earth
